food for thought
I need to watch myself.
I know most of my faults very well and I keep track of them.
For example: I’m self-deprecating (and I’m working on that, thank you very much) and I’m afraid that I’ll self-deprecate myself to death one day. I’m unbearably self-conscious and always nervous (especially around people I want to impress). They’re also things I’m working on and trying to overcome, but it’s not easy.
Not to be all Charlie Bartlett about this– but I like people to like me and find me funny and charming, which, granted, I know I can be around certain people. Some of my friends are under the impression that I’m really bubbly and energetic, then they take a class with me and are surprised by how quiet I am.
I’m such a total introvert that it’s always hard for me to express my opinions– I’m much more comfortable with a paper or a pen.
Well, lately I’ve also noticed that I tend to make snarky comments in Chinese class and drills whenever I’m tired and not thinking too clearly. This usually happens at the start of class, when I’m still caffeine-deprived. I need to learn to censor myself more and think before speaking. (I should probably thinking before speaking more often anyway before shooting off my mouth.)
And you know.
Just, baby steps.
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